Paradise!

This may be a long time after I'm putting something up on this post. Unlike many bloggers, I usually wait for something to happen that is worth writing about. Though it completely contradicts the definition of blogging, it works for me just fine!

I love jogging, I truly do. And considering that fact that its my final year in this beautiful campus, I had decided long time back to spend more time around nature than elsewhere. So I've been jogging regularly for the past sometime I've been here, and as always, I get high after a 4 to 6 km run. The first time is a little painful, literally, because you suddenly get aware of the puny muscles you weren't cognizant of. Yes, awareness of form that restrains you from turning on you bed or getting up from the "poop" position (squatting, as many call it) is something I'd rather not have. Nevertheless, after a while, the pain alleviates, the muscles and tendons get back to their normal business, and life is good.

Today, as the title suggests, was a paradise for me. Or for most joggers so to say.
Cloudy sky, mild drizzle, fragrance of the wet soil, cool breeze giving those occasional goosebumps.....

A perfect milieu for joggers and nature lovers. And what added to the whole setting was the fact that one could spot a dozen of spotted deer and blackbucks, apart from the monkeys that looked kinda nice sitting with their babies and protecting them from the rain. I wonder why I detest them when they do the same outside my hostel room.

Its 7:40 AM right now, and I've been up for over an hour and a half.

I stink.

I need a bath.

What's in a name?!

I was reviewing the pages of my little over 20 years of life and was suddenly struck by the fact that till now I've been given a lot of names. Contributors include parents and friends mostly. Yeah, thats about it I guess, still haven't got the names like "Jhappi" or "Sweety" 'coz thats one thing you don't get when you are single! :D
So here they are, just a reminder to all those who might have forgotten them. For me, these aren't merely names, but carry with themselves a soul which have gotten so attached to me that its difficult to pass a day without them!

Names in chronological order (in brackets are the people who coined them-time):-

1) Betu (Pa - before my birth)
2) Anku (Very common, Ma and Pa - post birth, till date)
3) Cikku/Chikki/Chikmangaloor/Chikda (Modified versions by Ma - till date)
4) Rani beti (Ma - when she has to get some work done!)
5) Chottu (First nick ever, Pushkar and then the whole class followed-school days around 3-4th standard)
6) Jerry mouse (Sumelika, a wonderful friend - 8-10th standard. I used to call her Tom)
7) DJ/ADJ/Deej (Whole class - 10th onwards and now its an official college nick)
8) Hanky/Monkeyta (Puchhu/Vij - 11-12th standard)
9) Shorty/ Syaaxy one (sexy pronounced in a very country fashion) (Kini bro - college)
10) Deeju (AJ - college)
11) Deeday (Aru - college)
12) Kita (Fufa - college)
13) Small wonder (GRV - college)
14) Smallie (Puchhu/CB - school/college)


Hmph, I guess thats all. Though I have this feeling that I'm missing out on a few. Well, well, if I remember I'll try and not get lazy to put them up in the next blog!

Cheers!

Perfect!

A mild coconut aroma fills up the room. Its the oil my father had applied to my hair tonight that gives my room a very refreshing South-Indian flavor.
With the evening rains, temperature has dropped resulting in soft, cool zephyr giving me those occasional goosebumps you often long for in a place like Delhi.
The pleasant rustling of the leaves outside the window and the cacophonous noise of the traffic seem to be playing a tug-of-war, with one growing as the other subsides.
The clouds have parted. The sky is unusually mauve, more towards purplish-black, with a few twinkling stars making the sky absolutely enthralling.
All this garnished with a mint flavored lemonade.

Perfect!

Sometimes, senses give more than merely an awareness.
Together, they create a milieu for sixth one!

Of horoscope and its interesting connotations!

I don't really know if I had bit myself that day or was hit hard on the head, but I had logged into some kinda horoscope service. Apparently, every time I read it, it tells me about the fortune I will have in the things/people that I really don't have and vice versa. For example:

Things I don't have:-
a) Boyfriend
b) Lover
c) Secret love affair (wtf!!!???)
d) Money and shares
e) Kids (hello!!!)
f) And for the finale: LUCK

Things I have:-
a) An excellent family excluding kids and, well, husband!
b) Friends
c) Future boyfriend (sigh!)
d) Brains!
e) Three very very crucial weeks
f) And for the finale: BADLUCK

Oh well! Lets see what fate and fortune and all that has in store for me in the future. For now, I'm doing good without it!

Best gear shift!

Third to fourth!

:)

It has hit me!

I always wondered why people driving cars go zooming past when there is no need for any kind of hurry, I mean sharp turns, sudden brakes etc. One of my friends had once told me that when you start driving you are way too cautions. As time passes, you become more reckless and rash! I didn't believe it untill this very moment!
My worst driving ever!
My worst decisions ever!
Had my father been beside me, he would have kicked me so hard that I would've remembered it all my life!
But nothing to worry, nothing bad happened, just a few sharp turns and sudden brakes.
I wish I was a little more careful, 'coz introspection is something that annoys me, more so 'coz I always do it!

Dum dum dum...

And the God kicked my Bum!
:D

Not good

Being optimistic by nature, I used to think that everything happening around me is good.
But now I can't take it anymore. Stuff happening to me is not really the kind I'd want anyone to go through. It's painful.
And I don't like it.
I really don't like it, knowing the fact that all I can do about it is brood and crib. Nothing more, nothing less.
It sucks.
Bigtime!

The wait, awfully long wait..

I've never wanted these two months to go by any faster than this. That too when the holidays are going on. Holidays, as taught/learnt/experienced so far, are sometimes when one gets to relax and take all the time off the main course work. Somehow, thees holidays are doing everything thing to me except the things I just mentioned.
IITD, Germany, IITD, Germany..it feels like my life has been revolving around these words since I came over to Delhi. Oh yes! And GRE too. And passport, VISA, VFS, Immigration Office, Offer letter. In the most desperate way, my ears don't want any of these any more!
Last semester has been much of a roller coaster ride. The initial disappointment of not getting any good internship in any of the millions of universities, rejection letters filled with no funding, no time, no vacancy...Then the faint glint of hope all the way from Germany, then the initial confusion, exchange of a zillion mails...VISA submission, application form confusion, place confusion. I truly believe that that one form of mine was an exhaustive set of all sets of confusions possible! Funny as it may sound like, unfortunately, its nowhere even in the vicinity of being funny.
Well, there are times when I just feel nothing. Absolutely nothing. No happiness, no sadness, no anger, no satisfaction, no regret, nothing! Yet, I hope. I hope that something someday might happen which could change all of this. I wish I could feel happy/sad/angry, whatever, for just one brief moment without thinking about whats going to happen the moment I stop smiling, or screaming, or being gloomy as hell. Scoring probably the highest in the class has still somehow not given me the kick it always used to give. Maybe its the times, maybe its just me.
I wish it were only the times and nothing else, 'coz I'm still optimistic about them changing. But if its me, its more serious that this. Or maybe not. I don't want to do anything, I just don't feel like doing anything constructive. Yet, when I actually don't do anything, I start feeling bad about not doing what I could have done when I choose not to do it. Yeah, well, funny as it may sound (yet again!), its not!
What now!?
Bed or Comp?
We'll see..

True things

Right now, someone is really sad and someone is really happy!
Yeah, everyone knows it, I'm just putting it into words. Apart from the fact that I'm bored.
Bahh..!

Funny!

Few things always make me smile/laugh/giggle. And its not that its 'coz they've been told the first time, its just an every time thing! Three years into my precursor of an Engineering career, and my mother still thinks that I've got nut equivalents in my brain. Its kinda normal when you think of it. People close to you rarely admire you to the extent those who aren't close enough. Well I'm not the one dying for admiration or attention here but what I just said was absolute crap. I have no clue why I wrote that so as everyone can see, the summer heat is taking its toll on me. Damn the sun, damn the tripping a/c (well, literally, when it sees me shuffle between rooms to get some comfort!).
I'm in a brooding mood.

It's hot.
My mother says I have meagre chances of getting a good guy considering the fact that the ones already around me don't particulary create even a ripple!
I'm getting old, ok, almost old.
It's hot.
Germans are troubling me. Ok, not generalizing but I mean the Embassy guys.
Delhi water has too much Chlorine, my hair doesn't shine and bounce.
It's hot.

Ok, now the good things:
I'm hot.
It rained here, just now, mildish hairstorm.
I've got a cold but its fun irritating people around.
I'm hot.
Good food. Awesome food. Amazing food.
No TV so no headache!
Did I mention I'm hot! :D (I so love doing it!)

Thats it. By and large, my life's is just too good! Really. No sarcasm this time.

PS: I'm so sure I'll be getting comments like "Stop being such a narcissist!" and "Why brooding so much?".
:D Its fun when you can predict things, oh my, I really am bloody good!

:)

Definition of the very famous 'Royal Shove'

1. Code doesn't work, infact gives values of the order of 601 for a 0.5 m wave!
2. You think you are getting enough money for one month to spend, but then you figure out that the sum was for 2 months total!
3. Prof gives you a chapter, so that you can read it and make notes for 'him' so that he can teach the next batch.
4. Prof screams at his assistant about leaving the windows open 'coz the room sticks of sweat! In your presence that is..
5. The prof whom you need to talk desperately regarding a very important issue is either busy/gone for lunch/in a seminar/in HOD's office..basically never available!
6. You always get interrupted when you are talking in terms of i's and j's on a staggered grid scheme with linearized shallow water equation.
7. You puke!
8. Bad hair day!
9. Bad head day for all that is.
10. You have to give a presentation on an unknown topic, for unknown time with some unknown guy.
11. You are jittery, and you don't know if its the hormones or the people around you. Both are irritating.
12. There is always a lot of work on the other side, the moment you go nearer, either you don't feel like doing it/or you just happily ignore its existence. And then suddenly before sleeping, you again realize how much work is left undone.
13. THERE ARE BLOODY 13 POINTS!!!!

cheers cheers!
:)

Change

Yeah, well, I changed the title of my blog. From the highly introspective and philosophical tag-line to the simplest one that came to my head.
Who cares!?
I'm tired of running around, tired of having people around, tired of answering unnecessary questions that they ask.
The most difficult thing in this world today is not the things we think are. Its not achieving success, not falling in love, not being happy, but infact is being left alone when one wants to. My door is open, but its open for me to go out and come in, not for just anyone to walk in whenever they want. They should realise this. Unfortunately, what they are interested in is what I'm doing, whom I'm chatting with, what I'm chatting about, which books I'm reading!!
Just because I talk to them politely doesn't mean they take me for granted for everything.
The only thing thats holding me up, is the fact that I know I wont stick with these people for the rest of my life. And I know I'll end up forgetting them. So will they. Thats a fact no one wants to accept but they all know that deep inside.
A little self control at this point may be troublesome, but helpful for the long run.
I'm trying not to let my bubble burst!

Thud!

PS: I'm not depressed, I'm not in a pathetic state. Nothing's wrong with me. All I'm doing is thinking aloud. Its just a part of the normal introspection process. So please please, don't drop comments like "Hey, whats wrong?" etc etc.

Later..
:)

Final destination

Today, I did what I had dreamed of doing from the time I began jogging.
GC-Main gate-GC-OED-Gurunath... Nonstop!
Phew, it didnt look that long when I was actually jogging! ;)

Great going, dj!

My deteriorating level

One of my friends showed me a downloaded pic of Anna Kournikova. My first reaction was "why on Earth has he named a female's pic as Anna?" PS: I thought it was 'Anna' of Tamil language meaning Brother!

Note:

The only good things happening in my life right now are that I am single and jogging regularly!
Isn't life great ?!?